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In a couple of hours I'm going to get my hair cut by ![[insanejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/ij-userinfo.gif)
kyonkun and aznridah's hairdresser (ooh, doesn't that sound fancy? ;D).
Almost a week ago, I played the final adventure of Warmakers.
The relationship between these two things probably only makes sense in my mind, but it's real enough for me. A few weeks ago, I joked toshadawyn that chopping your hair off is something you do after a breakup, so it figures that I'd do it right after my long-term relationship with Warmakers ended. XD (Not that I'm actually chopping my hair short ... and not that I'm really done with Warmakers, at least not if you count fic ... oh well.)
The end of Warmakers means, of course, the end of a D&D campaign - but also no more episodes of a story that I've been following for a year and a half, and has hardcore eaten my brain for at least the past six months; no more going toshadawyn and irishninja's apartment every other Sunday and seeing the other players; no more obsessive poring over one of my favorite character builds to date ... It's the end of a lot of stuff, obviously. More than that, it's change. And change always leaves me feeling kind of wistful and wooby.
So the thought of other changes - either little ones, like my pending haircut, or big ones, like moving in withratzeo later this year - are setting off my woobiness and leave me feeling sensitive.
I don't mind. In a weird way, I enjoy being sensitive, when it makes me feel so strongly in a positive way (either a straight-up "yay I'm happy about this" way, or a bittersweet "I'm sad I no longer have this, but that means it was something I really liked" way). Of course, being sensitive can have its downsides like feeling so easily panicked by the prospect of the NWSA conference in THREE WEEKS that I currently can't look too closely at my notes without getting bad heart-poundy feelings but ANYWAY. But even if the really strong good moods are fleeting, and the bad moods are disruptive, it's good to occasionally be made to really pay attention to, and experience, the world. At least I think so.
Oh, and if anyone is interested, here is the model image that I will be giving to the hairdresser. Here's hoping it looks that good!
kyonkun and aznridah's hairdresser (ooh, doesn't that sound fancy? ;D).Almost a week ago, I played the final adventure of Warmakers.
The relationship between these two things probably only makes sense in my mind, but it's real enough for me. A few weeks ago, I joked to
shadawyn that chopping your hair off is something you do after a breakup, so it figures that I'd do it right after my long-term relationship with Warmakers ended. XD (Not that I'm actually chopping my hair short ... and not that I'm really done with Warmakers, at least not if you count fic ... oh well.)The end of Warmakers means, of course, the end of a D&D campaign - but also no more episodes of a story that I've been following for a year and a half, and has hardcore eaten my brain for at least the past six months; no more going to
shadawyn and irishninja's apartment every other Sunday and seeing the other players; no more obsessive poring over one of my favorite character builds to date ... It's the end of a lot of stuff, obviously. More than that, it's change. And change always leaves me feeling kind of wistful and wooby.So the thought of other changes - either little ones, like my pending haircut, or big ones, like moving in with
ratzeo later this year - are setting off my woobiness and leave me feeling sensitive.I don't mind. In a weird way, I enjoy being sensitive, when it makes me feel so strongly in a positive way (either a straight-up "yay I'm happy about this" way, or a bittersweet "I'm sad I no longer have this, but that means it was something I really liked" way). Of course, being sensitive can have its downsides like feeling so easily panicked by the prospect of the NWSA conference in THREE WEEKS that I currently can't look too closely at my notes without getting bad heart-poundy feelings but ANYWAY. But even if the really strong good moods are fleeting, and the bad moods are disruptive, it's good to occasionally be made to really pay attention to, and experience, the world. At least I think so.
Oh, and if anyone is interested, here is the model image that I will be giving to the hairdresser. Here's hoping it looks that good!
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And as for the rest; yes, what you said, but without the haircut part, because I've done that too many times in my life already and I'm determined I ! Will! Grow! It! Out!
But I'm sure I'll do something else I'll eventually tie to the change. Cos I'm like that.
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Weren't you planning to rearrange your apartment this summer? That would work as a change that could, to a dorky mind, tie into the end of the campaign.
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