sigelphoenix

So: in order to alleviate the whininess of my last entry, here's some things I did to boost my mood (besides time and sleep, which always help soothe the mind and the hormones).

I took a short walk this morning, before the day gets too hot. My neighborhood is a pretty good place to walk, because it has a lot of winding streets (so long as you know your way back). On the way, I decided to concentrate on small things, because these moods always intimidate me with how broad and permanent they feel - I'm not doing anything worthwhile this summer, I have no talent, I always get discouraged this easily, etc.

I looked for individual things. I watched a pale yellow butterfly on the bushes next to me. I watched a fat corgi wander around its yard (IT WAS SO FAT T_T). I watched a cat sleeping in the shade. I found a house with a wraparound front porch, just like the house where I grew up in Texas.

I'm also going to try more CG coloring again tonight (taking advantage of the campus computers with their big and pretty monitors). I'm reminding myself that the reason I was so excited to work on my first picture wasn't because I was particularly skilled, but because it's a new and fun technique, and there's so much I can try. The nasty little voices that say 'you can't do it' and 'you're not as good as _____' can shove it.

( And some goodies )