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sigelphoenix) wrote2008-03-13 03:56 pm
sigelphoenix) wrote2008-03-13 03:56 pm
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OTL-ness ahoy
In a foul mood today. Blugh.
I made the mistake last night of having espresso on a semi-empty stomach (I'd eaten food recently, but hadn't had dinner). Coffee gives me a buzz anyway, but I think that was also more espresso than I've had in a long time. The result was a short-lived bout of frenetic energy in which anything! was! possible! before I crashed and just felt twitchy.
My body being as sensitive as it is, the physical tension combined with mental tension to give me a mild panic attack. I know, that was just ... dumb. I mean, some of the mental tension was justified (among other things, discovering that I have further to go on my calendar art than I'd realized), but some (like wondering whether the shoes I ordered online really fit, and whether I should return them, or try to break them in, which would wear them down and make them unreturnable) was not.
Of course that meant I didn't sleep well, and then today at work it was Call/Come In With Your Needy Requests, You Little Babies day. I had to bite my tongue hard in order to hold back snark and maintain a cheery Sure I'll Help You, Of Course It's Okay For You To Ask That demeanor. As always, the solid support of my coworkers functions as a lifesaver.
So. That sucked.
But I'm done with it now.
Or, at least, I want to be. So to help with that, I'm going to spend my evening indulging in healthy comforts. So that means no moping my night away, because I don't have time for that. I'm going to brew myself a pot of relaxing tea, crank up some Broadway music, and color my little heart out.
Not sure if that will actually cure everything. But it sounds delicious, and I'm already feeling brighter for looking forward to it, so I guess it's doing its job.
I made the mistake last night of having espresso on a semi-empty stomach (I'd eaten food recently, but hadn't had dinner). Coffee gives me a buzz anyway, but I think that was also more espresso than I've had in a long time. The result was a short-lived bout of frenetic energy in which anything! was! possible! before I crashed and just felt twitchy.
My body being as sensitive as it is, the physical tension combined with mental tension to give me a mild panic attack. I know, that was just ... dumb. I mean, some of the mental tension was justified (among other things, discovering that I have further to go on my calendar art than I'd realized), but some (like wondering whether the shoes I ordered online really fit, and whether I should return them, or try to break them in, which would wear them down and make them unreturnable) was not.
Of course that meant I didn't sleep well, and then today at work it was Call/Come In With Your Needy Requests, You Little Babies day. I had to bite my tongue hard in order to hold back snark and maintain a cheery Sure I'll Help You, Of Course It's Okay For You To Ask That demeanor. As always, the solid support of my coworkers functions as a lifesaver.
So. That sucked.
But I'm done with it now.
Or, at least, I want to be. So to help with that, I'm going to spend my evening indulging in healthy comforts. So that means no moping my night away, because I don't have time for that. I'm going to brew myself a pot of relaxing tea, crank up some Broadway music, and color my little heart out.
Not sure if that will actually cure everything. But it sounds delicious, and I'm already feeling brighter for looking forward to it, so I guess it's doing its job.
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I mean, I could probably get it done tomorrow, but when I said "sure no problem" about the 14th I totally neglected to remember that this is my finals week >->;
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Thanks. *hugs*
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Sorry I've been so slow with email RP... responses are coming harder than usual.
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Pssh, don't worry about it. I know work is has you running around right now.